Possibly Maybe

Despite my possibly defeated stance in my previous post, Rose and I have continued to see each other and develop our relationship, even though we still haven't quite defined what it is.
Unfortunately, Jubilee has turned out to be almost entirely uninterested, so I've given up on that possibility.  If you've got the time to post goofball memes on Facebook, but won't take the time to send me a simple message, it's your loss, darlin'.
Getting back to my main point, Rose and I have been learning and growing together.  I think there's a lot of true potential for something serious here, but there is still a little hesitance.  We've grown to love each other a lot, but neither of us wants anybody to get hurt, so we're currently working on being friends, like we should have from the start.  It's not always easy, especially considering our attraction to each other, but we're doing our best to take it one day at a time, and just relax and let life happen.
On the way to see me a few days ago, Rose was in a car accident.  Thankfully, she wasn't hurt, and the damage to the car was minimal, but it was a very scary day for both of us.  Unless you've experienced something similar, I'm not sure if I can describe it an an adequate way.  I knew she was unhurt, but the simple thought that she could have been sank down into my bones and worried me for hours on end.  In fact, I think I carried that worry with me until she saw me a few days later.  We hugged for a very long time, and we both cried a little.  Sometimes, I wonder what might have happened to me if things had gone differently, and Rose was no longer here, but those kind of thoughts are best avoided.
If all goes to plan, Rose will be meeting my family for Easter dinner soon, and then I'll be meeting her family on Easter Monday (for those confused, it's a Canadian thing).  I'm looking forward to it, and my family is interested, considering I've never really had anyone over for dinner in a very long time, much less a possible girlfriend.  
Possible is the operative word in this situation.  Much as I don't like to think about it, there are still some areas where we don't match up.  I think I'm improving in those areas though, although I'm not doing it just for her, but for myself as well.  The point is that we can't treat this like a sure thing, as much as we both want it to be so.  Either way, I think we'll be in each other's lives.  If we're friends, we'll be the best of friends.  I already put her in the same class as Number One, so that should tell you something.  And if we end up being more than friends, it will be something really beautiful.
But until we know one way or another, we're just going to be really close friends.
But...
possibly
 maybe
Possibly love.