Staying Sane

The past few weeks have been a bit of an emotional time for me.  Some days I'm okay and I can see a silver lining behind the rain clouds.  Other days, all I want to do is lie in the dark listening to depressing music by bands like The Smiths.  Most days, I'm somewhere in between these two states, which is kind of frustrating, but I guess this is all part of the process.  I think one of the worst parts of it is that after being with Rose for so long (in fact, this was the longest relationship I've been in thus far), almost anything has the potential to remind me of her, which can drop me straight into mourning mode.  Combating this sort of thing is job number one at the moment, so I've decided to make a list of the little things that have been keeping me going lately.

• long walks and fresh air
• new comics
• the cool candy store that's just around the corner from my place
• the music of David Bowie, Daft Punk and U2
• my weird family, who never fail to make me laugh
• watching terrible movies just so I can make fun of them
• Mass Effect 3
• friends who care

I'm going to finish off with a few quotes about my situation.  The first comes from my fellow blogger and friend from afar, Lauren.  She checks in with me every once in a while, and she summed up the situation perfectly with this:
"Sometimes you have to let someone go even when you love them. You have to do it because it's the loving thing to do & the best thing for both of you. And it completely sucks."

The other is something from the new David Bowie album, The Next Day.  If you haven't heard this, I urge you to listen, because it is far more than a simple comeback album.  These lyrics are something I think of/tell myself when I get sad about how things went with Rose and they help me to be less worried about the future.

"I don't need to know

Know where you are

Only that you are

Safe in this world

Then I'll be content

Get on with my life

Eat, drink and sleep

Look up at the stars"