Game Over

Forget the name Alex, readers.  It's all over now.  Do not pass go, do not collect 200 dollars.
As usual, I tried to get too close to a girl and ended up scaring her away.
I found the message waiting for me the other day, and was a bit devastated to learn that, despite her apparent enthusiasm, Alex was no longer interested in dating me.
She said she has a boyfriend now, and my behaviour was making her uncomfortable.  I'm don't know if this is the truth or not, but if she was telling the truth, I don't know why she never mentioned it before.  If it was some sort of well-intentioned lie, that doesn't sit well with me either.  I don't care about being let down gently.  I've been hurt enough times that I can take whatever any girl has to say to me, however harsh it might be.  I guess if this is the case, I should be glad that she was trying to be considerate, but these kind of things don't help one move on well.  If there was an untruth involved, it makes me question every past message, and I wonder if any interaction we ever had was really genuine.  It's irrational, and I probably shouldn't look at things that way, but I can't help but think that way when things like this suddenly happen.
Understandably, I'm feeling a bit like crap right now.  I was convinced that Alex and I had a future together.  I had made arrangements to meet with her, and it was something I was really looking forward to, but I guess that's not happening now.
When I stop to think about it, this is pretty much exactly how things went with Three Point One.  I'm just glad I didn't tell my parents this time around, because having to tell them it didn't work out again would kill me even more.  I suppose I'm going to have to tell the story to any friends I told over the past while, having to relive the awful moment over and over.  Maybe in time I will move on, and maybe even forget about Alex entirely until she's nothing more than a name to me.  Realistically speaking though, I'll probably never forget her.  I opened myself up to her, and she has a piece of my heart, even if she doesn't want it anymore.
I really don't understand how someone can just switch themselves off like that.  I know it was only on the internet and we never actually met, but I'm sure there was some sort of connection we had somewhere.  I've never been on the other end of things, but if it was me in her situation, I don't think I would just cut things off the way she did with me.  I would at least do my best to stay friends.  Maybe I care too much about people, even the ones who hurt me.  I don't know.
I've been talking to several friends, and I think maybe it's time that I just forgot about dating for a while, and stopped depending on the magic solution.  I guess I've got some serious thinking to do, because whatever I'm doing now just isn't working.