'The Magic Solution'

Let me share with you the great fallacy of my life I call 'the magic solution'.  This has been an idea that I've probably has since high school, and I somehow have never been able to shake it.  Simply put, 'the magic solution' is the idea that once I find someone to love, all my problems will magically melt away.  Of course, as I said before, this is a complete fallacy.  It would be nice, but there really is no 'magic solution'.  Having a girlfriend would possibly ease my various tensions and struggles in life, but things would remain largely the same.  My problem is that I continue to hold onto this false idea, even when I recognize that it's not good to be thinking this way.  

What I really need to work on is being okay with being on my own.  You'd think after being alone so long,  I would have developed some sort of comfort in it.  I can't really explain it, but there's just something I feel that I'm missing.  It's not a social or spiritual need, but more of an emotional connection that I just haven't been able to find with anyone.  I enjoy things like exploration and meeting new people, but sometimes, the world feels like a big, scary place where it's really easy to get lost, and I'd really like someone to be there next to me if I need them.

It's an ongoing process, and whatever happens, I hope to be okay just being in my own skin someday.  For those of you who know what I'm talking about, my broken heart goes out to you.  This video gets at some of the solutions to the problem, and I hope you find it helpful.  I don't remember how I came across it, so I'm going to credit Number One with this.