Why do you want this?

As a few of you are already aware, this month, I am participating in the event known as NaNoWriMo.  You can follow my progress on my other blog, The Fiction Factory.  I should be writing my story at the moment, but I woke up this morning with this song in my head.  Understandably, this left me feeling a little out of sorts about my relationship status.
In the course of my many cases of the late-night-lonelies, I've had a number of friends ask me:  why do you want a relationship so badly in the first place?  It's a very good question, but I really don't have an answer to it, and this drives me a little crazy.  At one point I thought I'd figured things out, but it wasn't long before I was falling into the old patterns again, and I realized I was wrong about the cause.  It could be that there isn't even a root cause at all, and it's just the way I am.
I think we all want love on some level, whether we admit it or not.  I don't believe anyone is meant to go through life on their own.  I suppose this means that I should just place more of my trust in God (or the universe, if you prefer) that things will work out.  Impatience is kind of my undoing at times.  I'm not sure I've ever been in a real relationship, and it's something I want to have so much that it becomes very frustrating for me when things don't work out that way.
I'm glad I have my writing obligations at the moment, because it's something to occupy myself with, rather than worrying about myself about things I don't have.  Knowing my luck, some time this month, my social/romantic life will somehow explode, and then things will get very interesting indeed.