As usual, this had lead me to a lot of thinking about how I operate and how I get myself into these things. In my thinking, I've discovered something dreadfully ironic about these 'other man' situations. If I'm really honest with myself, I have to admit that nine times out of ten, I would probably take the girl that was there over the girl on the computer. What's worse is I don't think I'd even feel that bad about it. Seems I might not be as nice a guy as I thought I was. Furthermore, this makes me realize another thing. All of these girls who have passed me over have gotten along just fine without me, so it stands to reason that I can get along without them. This idea seems a little 'sour grapes' to me, but facts are facts. I guess the point is that I can't keep on wrapping myself up in things, then complain when I can't move freely anymore.
Tuesday, April 3, 2012
I hate you, irony
Fully getting over Alex has been a tougher task than I expected. While I have made the first step and acknowledged that I was never in love, I still find myself having trouble fully letting go. I find myself wanting to contact her again, but ultimately, I have to stop myself from doing so. Even if it were to happen in an ideal way, and we would become friends again, I think it still would not work out well for me. I would find myself wanting something I can't have, which would only put a strain on things, and could even start the whole cycle over again. Upon the advice of a friend, I'm going to write a letter soon. I'm going to tell Alex all of the things I want to say, but she'll never see that letter, and hopefully that will help me to finally accept the way things turned out.
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Writing a letter and getting out all of your feelings is a great way to better understand the situation. Even better that you don't actually send it. It's for your benefit.
ReplyDeleteYou should just mail the letter to some random address. Who knows where it will end up years down the line!
ReplyDeleteI'm sure you get this all the time, but I can relate to this so much.
ReplyDeleteGetting over someone is always tough. There's the 'one that got away' mentality that keeps bringing you back to thoughts of them. But moving on is always a worthwhile cause, no matter how difficult it may be.
ReplyDeleteGetting your thoughts down on paper will help. You're a writer, after all. I sense that's how you best express yourself. I say go for it.
Cheers, friend.
~Shane
The problem with the attachments you form online, and what makes them difficult to pass is that they are entirely emotionally. They lack a lot of components of regular relationships, which means that when they end, even when they were hardly there to begin with, is that they are harder to get past, because they are entirely about our hearts.
ReplyDeleteWrite letters, trust me, it helps. I still do it sometimes when I have people who I can't get off my mind/heart.
Spot on observation, Tabs! This is something I hadn't really realized until just recently, but it is very true.
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